Friday, November 2, 2018

October 2018, Birthdays, Halloween, and life

The mornings in the Fall usually make me happy, the humidity is gone, the air is brisk, and the sky can be stunning.  This is the view from my train platform on two mornings this month.



This is a good picture of my Mom

 My daughter had a birthday, 14 years old, where did that time go?  I missed her mother's presence there, but she is no longer an active part of our lives.  I am really just emerging from the cloud of narcissistic manipulation I had lived under for the last 16 years.  It's like a rebirth, painful but good.

Madison's birthday was a success.  She was happy.



Mamita turned 80, and we had a nice time.  It was nice to be treated as part of a family, where your presence is wanted and appreciated.  It made me very happy.


 Madison went trick-o-treating with her friends.



And of course Joe turned 51, I am so looking forward to going to Portugal.



Wednesday, October 3, 2018

September 2018 Recap

My daughter after a day in the surf, I love when her hair is natural and curly, it always looks amazing as it dries from a day at the beach.


The first day of school pic, obligatory for this month.
A visit with friends
 A hole at Grandma's house, due to neighbors bulkhead being replaced.


 Tested out Halloween Costume

 Hole got bigger
 Decorated inside, really Laura did it all.
 Bubble run at Jones Beach


In the end a busy month.  On a serious note my daughter is working through her feelings, and trying to work out some things, and I try to help, but this is really something she needs to figure out.  Finally fixed the hose on the side of the house, so that's no excuse for me to not get stuff done anymore.


Friday, September 7, 2018

August of 2018

The big part of August was going to Virginia, and visiting Shenandoah, which I recommend to anyone near the vicinity. 

Christmastown shop


Shenandoah

Unicorn Puzzle, only took 4 days!

Madison on rock

Ana on Rock

Madison and I at waterfall


Who is this guy?

Madison photo credit

Madison photo credit

Madison and Ana at James' Birthday

Mom and James

This summer was a full one, and a happier one than the year before.  Moving on and realizing that you were never loved or valued is tough, and perhaps I'll write about that another time, but for now I am happy and grateful for what I have in my life.
Namaste


Wednesday, July 18, 2018

July 2018

Turned 51
 Madison had cousins sleeping over
 Madison went to camp, hated it!
 Grandmama got hugs from other kids
 Madison and Maria cam back from camp
Nathan's was the last US meal for the Motherways.

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Jump up to January 2018

Last weekend we went to the zoo.  My daughter took these pictures, except of course for the one I took of her and her friend.  It was a fun day, with the weather being sunny and the zoo being empty.  The new reality of my family, or what or who consists of my family hit me at full force.   So much change.  I will write about the changes moving forward, but for now, some zoo pics.







Friday, January 19, 2018

Where did the years go?

So much has happened, so much has changed, I don't really know where to start...

I finally regained access to this account, and so this blog, which I have not updated for some time.  I suppose as things in certain areas began to get worse it just took all the energy that I had to get through the days.  So I regained access.  That's good.

Then one of those things, look what you did on this day three years ago popped up.  That is a mixed blessing right now, but let's not get into that in this blog.

Three years ago I had seen that my wife was not happy, she was feeling down.  I believe the seemingly immediate cause was due to her mother taking back the mixer thing she used to make these delightful culinary baked goods, cookies and cakes and such.  It turns out that it wasn't quite that simple, but perhaps I will get into that at a later time.  I'm sure that I will, but not right now.

So, when there was time, money and opportunity I took my wife and daughter into Bloomingdale's in Manhattan.  We got a mixer, and a dress, as well as dresses for my daughter.  We ate at a burger place in Bloomingdale's, like my parents did with me when I was a kid, and went to FAO's and CB2 to look at furniture.  

I remember that day, and thinking how nice it was to be able to do things like that, and spend time, and make my wife and daughter feel special.  I remember that day clearly, I remember believing that things were good, and looking up.  I know I was happy.     





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